Saturday, January 17, 2015

January 1-10, 2015

Happy Things:

January 1, 2015
My last and favorite New Years text. He's the sweetest thing.

January 2, 2015
OBSESSED with these black/gold glitter nails. 

January 3, 2015 
Mom (in the hospital) called me really early in the morning and I was so scared. But she ended up needing to know where her tablet charger was. When I asked if she had a good night, she made a joke and laughed, like REALLY laughed for the first time in several weeks. It made me so happy. 

January 4, 2015
Finished "Dark Places" by Gillian Flynn. I liked "Gone Girl" better.

January 5, 2015

We had spaghetti at work. These kids have just no manners :) 

January 6, 2015
I love waking up and leaving the house when the moon is still up.

January 7, 2015
Mom's up and walking!

January 8, 2015
Celebrated Seth's birthday, he drove me there, I drove him home.

January 9, 2015
Mom was able to sit up and actually play cards.

January 10, 2015
This face!

Don't be surprised if more than half the pictures this year are of Lindsay's kids. They make me happy every time I get to see them. 

:) love you.

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

2015...part twoish.

First off, I am so obnoxiously thorough, like every step of every processes is extremely important to me. So, I sat down and was trying to write out my yearly resolution post. (You know the one, with the promises of a me that will be WAY better at writing in the blog.) When trying to figure out how to start the post, I decided to tell a little bit about my dad and explain why the process of losing him was crucial to this year's Blog Resolution. By the time I was finished typing, I realized it was several paragraphs long, tons and tons of words, and that I had written down every moment that I could possibly remember of the last seven months. So in my thoroughness to explain why I chose this resolution, I really ended up spilling every part of me on the screen. I read it over and over and over and over, and felt the heaviness of my words and knew how people (like the two people that actually read my blog?) would feel bad for me when they had read about my heart breaking over him. It wasn't even that sharing was hard or embarrassing or even wrong, but it was sad. so unbelievably sad. So rather than telling the story, I'll just kind of explain what I'm going to do and why I thought of it... hence, the "part twoish".

When my dad first got bad, about seven months ago, we started going over there regularly. Started every couple days, then every other, then daily, and then someone in the morning and someone in the evening. We got him a caregiver and tried to make very little time for him to be alone. I know it was slowly eating Maile, Hannah, and myself, but there was really no alternative. We looked into programs and tried to move towards that, but everything was such a process. Paperwork: proof of who he was, proof of his illness, proof of disability, proof of how much we made, proof proof proof paper paper paper. We would wake up early, go to work, one of us would call him and let the other two know that we called. Then we'd continually call throughout the day and when he didn't answer we'd worry and worry and worry. Then we'd get off work, we'd decide and dinner and we'd head over there. Everyday was a different combination of us, and sometimes all three. We'd spend all weekend there, making sure he was comfortable and not alone. We'd come home and get a few hours of sleep and do it over and over. We were so busy, we never talked to each other... I mean we hardly even saw each other.

During the first part of dad getting sick, Lindsay gave birth to our sweetest Tommy Boy.
Before he became the big headed love of our lives he is today, 
he was stuck in the hospital for a long time. It was so heartbreaking to watch Lindsay be so sad and us be unable to help. So we'd spend time with her kids and visit at the hospital when it wasn't our shift with dad. I'd try to get off work early, in hopes that I could do both. After almost forever, Tommy started to get better. He was health(ier) and we were so happy to see them head back to the Hogge house. 

During Dad's final days, we'd spend every waking moment in the hospital or the hospice. We enjoyed a lot of time with our older siblings and were hardly ever home or alone. We spent the days laughing, crying, and waiting.... and waiting.... and waiting.... 

After Dad passed, there was this whirlwind of people everywhere. Our siblings were in town, our Webster family reunion was that weekend, it was Thanksgiving, and we were having a funeral. We had to get things planned, people invited, songs practiced, talks written, food prepared, paperwork filled, final goodbyes finished. All while trying not to break down.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that there was just.. never a moment to stop and enjoy anything. I would sit down to watch TV or a read a book, only to feel the guilt of not checking on my dad or making sure my homework was done or my paperwork for work was finished up or realizing that I should really try and sleep instead of watch TV.  So, remember me saying how thorough I am?, now to the point of why I wrote this whole thing... 

My blog resolution this year is to find something everyday, small or big, and let it make me happy for a little bit of my day. I'm going to try to take pictures of it all and will probably succeed at that, but posting it weekly will be more of challenge. 

you know, at least this explanation part is done right? this was half the battle right here. Anyway, happy 2015. This is mainly to Rachael, here's to a year where you hopefully don't have to get mad at me in March because I already gave up blogging :) love you. 

Thursday, February 13, 2014

February Meal of the Week: One

Corn Chowder with Bacon Soup

ON: FEBRUARY 5, 2014

Where I Found It: Okay, so I can't remember where I got the EXACT recipe... which makes me mad, but this is very closest to it, but I didn't add celery because I am not a fan. 

Things that went well: relatively everything... I am becoming a pro at making bacon dishes, so naturally that went the best.

Things better left undone: CHOPPING FREAKING POTATOES/ONIONS... ugh. I hate chopping things seriously. I also thought I burnt it, so that wasn't cool either. 

Overall, it was delicious. I couldn't find bread bowls, so I just had rolls, but wonderful no less! It reheated really well and was good for Sharon to take the next day. 


Monday, February 10, 2014

End of January!

So, after my first full month of making dinners, I would say that I'm not too shabby at all :) 

I suppose the worst part of cooking is having all the ingredients and preparing them to be cooked (obviously).

On the weekends, I've taken to making little desserts and treats.

This month I made:


Oreo Cheesecake (I ran out of cupcake tins)

Also, I started Let's Discuss Diabetes with Owls by David Sedaris for February's book!
:) Gonna try some more difficult recipes in the coming month and make a dessert/snack every weekend!

loveeee you <3

Sunday, February 9, 2014

January Meal of the Week: Four

Loaded Potato and Buffalo Chicken Casserole
Just as delightful and bad for you as it sounds! 

ON: JANUARY 29, 2014

Where I Found It: Well, the idea came from Pinterest of course, but I didn't like the recipe I found there. So I googled the name and got this recipe, which worked much better for me.

Things that went well: um, it tasted like a heart attack waiting to happen... so that's how you know it's good. Also, I've become a professional at making bacon in the oven, so that's something amazing all in itself!

Things that made it not so fun: Cutting or chopping the potatoes was awful because I HATE it. Also, the making of the food was time consuming. I had to thaw the bacon, cook the bacon, chop the potatoes, cook the potatoes, cover the chicken in sauce, cook the chicken.... add cheese, cook everything... PLUS I always do everything ass-backwards, so I had to make extra sauce cause I used too much on the potatoes, didn't cut the chicken small enough (because it was frozenish and precooked....) Anyway, it came out fine in the end so that's a plus.

Overall, it was fine I guess.  It's these kinds of recipes that turn me off from cooking... an hour or more cooking and like you know 15 minutes of actual eating. I know I chose the recipe, but I hate recipes with so many components, but I have to learn right?

SUCCESSful no less.

loveeee youuuuus <3

Thursday, January 23, 2014

January Book: The Book Thief

The Book Thief by Markus Zusak 

Started: January 7th
Finished: January 13th

My favorite parts: 
-World War II Germany setting. 
-Death as the narrator.

It's the setting that makes the narrating so interesting. It's no secret how many tragedies happened during that time and there is no single person that could have told the story better than Death.

I didn't have a least favorite part, really.  It was thought provoking and a good read.

Lindsay has been wanting to see that movie, so it made for a perfect January book!

Also, after I read this book, I was looking for a list (on Pinterest) of other books that I may want to read throughout the year. I am really going to try for one a month, maybe even two! I happened to find a list of books that already had The Book Thief on it!

Here is the list. 

loveeeee youuuu <3 

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

January Meal of the Week: Three

Homemade Fettuccine Sauce & Pasta (plus bread)

ON: JANUARY 16, 2014

Where I Found It:  Pinterest, naturally. (You should know that I was looking for an impressive recipe to try, but easy and not super time consuming)

Things that went well: 
-The noodles came out REALLY solidly. Honestly, I don't usually do that well with noodles...
-Sauce tasted yummy and was way easier to make than seemed possible.
-Toasted the bread to perfection (my specialty ;))

Things that weren't my favorite:
- The sauce (although yummy), was very thick and filling... so it felt like alot to even have a little.

Overall, I think it served its purpose. It fed all four of us and tasted good.  However, the entire time I was cooking, I thought I wasn't going to have enough food, so I kept making back up Mac&Cheese plans in my head... but we actually had left overs so all that worrying for nothing.

Also, the recipe called for 8 oz of cream cheese, so I used this half greek yogurt/half cream cheese package (for a dollar more), but it was so much better for you... (At least that's what Sharon told me, she reads the labels). And, it's upside down for no reason?

It tasted good to me. So I may be using that more often! (Or maybe I shouldn't make so much stuff with cream cheese... I don't know)

Lastly, as we were all getting our food, I burned my hand on the pot and managed to drop the spoon (which was covered in sauce) on the floor and gave myself a little sauce shower. So, that was cool.

Anyway, dinner was a SUCCESS! 

loveeee youuuu <3